Saturday, December 15, 2012

A C-Section will NOT Define me!

I sit here full of emotion. Why? Because many of my friends are having babies....this is a joyous time right??? Not so, I  feel an emptiness within....I ignore it most of the time because I know my "time" to carry a child is gone. I linger to have a natural birth the kind that will a fill the void I carry in my womb. I have been thinking a whole lot about this lately and how I couldn't do it and how my body had failed me. The thought of a C-Section never even crossed my mine 4 years ago...I mean I would just have a baby like my mom and sister did right? Nope. Not even close. I failed.....its the first thing in my life I would FAIL at and never get to redeem. I was so close and just so far. I never knew that having a C-Section would impact my life the way it has. My whole life all I wanted was to be a mom.....and now I was....why was it not good enough??? I don't even know the answer to that I less of a mom because of it??? No. It's the pressure of being the Only one! That my body did not do its job. Maybe it's the would've, could've, should've that I won't get back. I never thought of myself as broken or less of a woman because of it. I know what labor is and how it feels and just missed the last step. I don't want to live the rest of my life obsessing over the fact that it didn't happen for me. I just have to let it go.....but its hard. I have to let it go and know that God knows why and he has a reason and GOOD ONE! I have to find the courage to LET GO and find peace. I will fail at other things in life.....I guess this is one of those times of moments of impact.....I just have to pick myself up and dust myself off and carry and just accept it for what it is. I am A MOTHER and it shouldn't and won't matter how my children arrived. My body is amazing after all it carried these children from egg to being....that is a miracle in itself. I need to let the wound heal instead of putting a bandaid over it and at this I will SUCCEED!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Losing Weight is HARD

Ahhh! Yes that is a scream! Why? Because losing weight is HARD! I started this journey sometime in MARCH I vaguely remember the date because I said what I usually said then, "I will start working out tomorrow." But something was different that time because I actually did it! I started INSANITY....I know, I know....Whoa! But it was all or nothing for me. You know I even got to a point where I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, "This is what a mom looks like don't be so hard on yourself". WRONG!!

I made a commitment and I have stuck to it for the past two months and a half. With the combination of Insanity and Running I have lost 16 pounds!!!! I still have 14 more to go but I am half way there and closer then I was 2 months ago. I am losing an average of 2 pound a week and GUESS WHAT??? NO DIET! Yep that that is right no starving myself. I eat our normal foods but in moderation. The KEY is making sure to get your cardio in and get your metabolism running. I am working out 6 days a week <<< I know it sounds crazy but it is so worth it!

Well I hope I can keep it up and reach my goals every POUND I lose is HARD but in the end worth it!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Stacy is ONE!

 Happy Birthday to our princess! We love you!
Outfit is from Bambina Figurina!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Smile.....okay don't!

Yesterday I was outside with my camera and along came my happy and spunky 2 year old Ryan! He was all excited about getting to play outside when all of a sudden mommy said, "smile for the camera"  and this what he did! I swear he is NOT a fan of the mamarazzi he has! LOL!

This was also right before he left for his haircut too! Toddlers are so emotional and show it well too! :)

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Monday, January 9, 2012


{1:12} MCP photo Project 2012

I decided that in order to become a better photographer I needed to embark on a journey with myself and look through the lens with my eyes wide open...and thus this is the prefect project. 

Our first task is the word Resolution!

Every year at the beginning of the year most people make a resolution. Some make some impossible ones and others make simple ones.  

This year I made the resolution to do more activities with my kids....especially RYAN! He is like a sponge and I would be a fool not to take advantage of his new found creativity and imagination. 

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The program is easy to download and set up. I had it all installed within 20 minutes. It is really an easy program to use and I even made a page in just 5 mins. Look below!

The program comes with a few different design, but you can download tons of different designs on their website.  Most of them cost a few dollars, but there are plenty of free designs as well. 

The best part of this program You can do it all on your computer or laptop (where your pictures probably are anyways) and if you want a hard copy you can print it out and add it to your scrapbook or frame it.

I can't wait to see what else I can create with it! 

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